Hi, Assalamualaikum.
Today's post, unfortunately, is not about books I've read. It's something that I've been meaning to tell the world, about how I feel. It's about beauty.
Some people say beauty lies in the eye of the beholder. But, is it? I'm not saying that I'm beautiful now, but I've been ugly back then. Fat, my oily face full with acnes,; I am truly ugly. But as times did its job, I've mature. Mature in terms of my way of thinking, and physically. I've been studying both men and women. They judge too soon.
Once, I'm an ugly fat nerd. I am truly a big nerd. No lying. And no one appreciates me. I tried to do things to catch people's attention; on how good I am at something. I did remember this one incident when I drew nudes and reading a thriller novel, people will say I am a weirdo. Now? I haven't change. At all. I still love to do what I did back then. But instead of calling me weirdo, people say I'm unique.
Sometimes, people are too easy on judging others based on their physical appearance. For me, physical beauty doesn't contribute enough in my life. People looked at me as if I am a sex object; ready to devour men to hell. They don't see me as an intelligent woman who can write, who can think out of the box, who can give them a cynical / sarcastic answer within a heartbeat. Whatever I did, everything must relate to sex.
It's such a shame to men worldwide; I think. When all you can think of is your sexual desire. I've been meaning to touch on the subjects of penises, vaginas or nudes as in the form of art, as in the form of educational matter but all they can see is that I'm triggering their thoughts in thinking that I am an object which they can easily try on in order to full fill their desire. It's sad. Because it's already 2016 and still, there are such men who think that way of a woman.
My advice- it's ok if you're fat. As long as you're happy, what others think of you; it doesn't matter. Fat, slim, curvy or etc have no mean if you don't keep your head on what you really want in life. Life is such a big words. Don't let others meddling with yours. Live your own. Be happy as you are. If you want to be a better person; a better woman, work out your intelligence level. There is no other beauty can beat an intelligent woman that know how to appreciate themselves.
